Friday, May 31, 2013

I just adore reading!!

I could get lost in a good book for hours! I would need to tear my self away just to complete the tasks for the day. I think that is why GOD has blessed me with kids, otherwise I would be a hermit somewhere.
I just received an email from Tyndale House introducing their new Rewards Program and inviting me to join this year's Summer Reading Program. Guess what, I wanted to share the invite with you!
If you use this code for the Rewards Program you will receive 25 points instantly & i  will earn 10 points also.  Hey if you love reading like i do, you might as well earn points right?
I know what you’re thinking . . . not another points program. You’re right! It’s not just another points program. The Tyndale Rewards program is designed to provide you with opportunities to get books and Bibles for zero dollars. That’s right—F. R. E. E. As a member of the Tyndale Rewards program, you’ll have access to inspiring literature, Bibles, special promotional offers, and much more.

Other member incentives include a free gift on your birthday, along with opportunities to share your personal recommendations and feedback concerning Tyndale products. The more participation you have with the program, the more points you earn—and points translate into free stuff!

The Tyndale Rewards program is a great way to get free books and Bibles that you can keep for yourself or give to friends and family.

                                           want to earn free books? check this out...

Tyndale Summer Reading Program
Welcome to the Tyndale Summer Reading Program

The Tyndale Summer Reading program is a great opportunity to earn rewards for reading and sharing about the books you read. When you sign up you can earn points towards free books by reading books listed on our summer reading list and then sharing about the books you read in a variety of places including personal blogs, retails sites (Amazon, Barnes & Noble,, etc), and social media sites like Facebook and Twitter
apply to Tyndale Summer Reading Program here
overall i think that Tyndale is a great resource for bibles, books & devotionals. i just love the parenting devo that i receive. but don't take my word for it. check them out for yourself.
Have a blessed day & happy reading!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Happy Mother's Day !!!!!!

Happy Mother's Day,mom!
I also wanted to take a minute to say, Happy Mother's Day to every mom, what a blessing you are! A special Mother's Day hug to the single moms. I know it is hard sometimes & you don't have anyone to share the duties with, but GOD sees you. HE loves you so much! Those babies are only yours for a little while.  Today I was thinking about the fact that it is only 18 short years that they live with us. In most cases , anyway. I have cried many tears, but I love those kids. Ther has been many days that I took another step, because I have them. Oooh, thank GOD! HE trusts me enough to loan them to me. Wow. Darling GOD is with you. The pain is temporary. You are not alone. I understand what it feels like to be a single parent. I understand what it feels like to be with someone & still feel like a single parent. You Are Loved! 
GOD, I thank you for all the moms everywhere. Please wrap your arms around all the single, lonely, unappreciated , hurting moms. May they experience Your Presence anew.  Drench them all with Your Favor, Provision, Abundance and Love. May their every need be met. Oh, LORD, there are many women who are sad today because of  a decision they made, perhaps they felt like there wasn't any other way. They need to know how much You love them. They need to be reassured of Your forgiveness. Help them to understand Your Words. To know deep in their hearts, when You say something is finished, It Is Finished! For all of eternity. Heal them LORD. Give them, give us the strength to carry on. May we always seek to love & help those who struggle with abortion.  May The Love overflow for those who have experienced having to give their child up for adoption, having their child taken from them, the pain of a miscarriage and/or the disappointment of infertility. In JESUS' Name.  Amen.
Happy Mother's Day.
               Soar on ladies! May JESUS' love lift us past yesterday into the beautiful future HE has for us.
**thanks graphics fairy for the awesome hot air balloon!

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

I will seek that which was lost...

 I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick: but I will destroy the fat and the strong; I will feed them with judgment. Ezekiel 34:16
Free Compass Clipart
have you ever had the feeling that something has gone terribly wrong?  that is the way i have been feeling about my life.
on may 1st, i published my first post for this blog. here is the part that i want to focus on today. "a couple of mornings ago, i woke up with the realization that i am a loser. no self-pity. no woe is me junk. i just realized  that  i having been walking in a delusion these past 17 years! "
in 1996 when i was 18 years old, i got pregnant & i birthed a beautiful baby girl. i am sure that most of you could guess that i am no longer with the father. although this has happened to many women before, it was only on april 30th of 2013 that i stopped to wonder why?
clearly i felt the need to look for something in the arms of a man , uh boy, but what was i searching for? worst yet am i still looking for it? now before you jump off the deep end, no i don't seek solace in the arms of men anymore, i am wiser than that. i know firsthand about the pains associated with premarital sex & the pain of keeping your heart pure- filling your heart with men.  also, i know that we all have a GOD sized hole in us that we often  try to fill with different things. some may be searching for acceptance, guidance, unconditional love, appreciation, joy, peace and the list goes on. but what was i seeking? what didn't i get at home, that i was looking to find in a man?
my parents GOD bless them, were like any other parents, dysfunctional. we are all screwed up , sorry- i mean fallen, in one way or another. my home was more of an example of how not to love someone than the beautiful love story all kids wish they could see at home, not just in the movies. 
i am praying that the Holy Spirit will guide me to the answer, because it is really bothering me. my life has been so difficult that there are times when i wanted to give up! that's it, i am finished! i don't want to play anymore. I now know that life is beautiful, yet when you are walking outside of GOD'S Plan for your life it can get downright hideous!
i drafted this post last night & i thought that i had simply ran out of time to edit and publish it.this morning during my devotional time, i came across this:
May 02, 2013
He said to Simon, "Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch." Luke 5:4 (NKJV)

Early on in Christ's ministry, before He even identified His twelve disciples, He did something that stands as a foundational lesson of discipleship.

A crowd had gathered along the shoreline of a lake. Jesus asked one of the local fishermen, Simon (a.k.a. Peter), to take Him offshore a few yards so He could teach the crowd from his fishing boat. Simon obliged, the people were taught, and then Jesus said something extraordinary (if not insulting) to Simon.

Jesus tells Simon, a seasoned fisherman, how to fish. "Go out a little further and drop your nets there." We know from the next verse that Simon had previously been out the entire night and caught nothing. If you were Simon, you'd be tempted to resist this command. After all, you're the expert on fishing, not Jesus! But watch what Simon says:

"We have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net." Luke 5:5 (NKJV)

Simon just does what Jesus says, and then catches a haul so miraculous that it breaks his nets! Falling down on his knees before Jesus, Simon recognizes him as "Lord." Jesus then tells Simon he would be a fisher of men from now on (Luke 5:6-10).

The lesson every disciple needs to learn here is this: The Lord often reveals how weak we are through our areas of strength. All of us are very good at certain things, just as Simon was very good at fishing. But no matter how good or gifted we are at something, God always wants us to understand how much greater He is.

God is always the expert. There's nothing in life we can inform or instruct Him on. Our best must always bow before Him in absolute submission. And when it does, when we realize that He knows more about everything, even those things we consider ourselves experts on, the door of faith opens and we're able to say, "Nevertheless at Your word I will..."

Think About It
What does this passage reveal to me about God?
What does this passage reveal to me about myself?
Based on this, what changes do I need to make?
What is my prayer for today?

( this devotion is from the Active Word Daily Devotionals-
it is a ministry of Calvary Chapel Fort Lauderdale-   it can be heard on reachfm-

so i found myself asking GOD if that is the very answer that i am searching for? 
i thought myself to be an expert at being independent. at 14 i found myself being introduced to the workplace. so from then on, i thought that was what was expected of me, to take care of my own wants. my parents provided the food and shelter, and i would do the rest. my parents weren't hateful, negligent  or mean. they were like everyone-doing the best that they could with what they had. they thought that they were teaching me the number one character trait-depend on yourself. please understand,  i am not blaming them at all. however the "i pulled myself up by my own bootstraps" theory laughs in the face of GOD. apart from GOD we can do nothing. HE gives us the air we breathe. the ability for our bodies to function. HE provides the desires, giftings, passions, interests,and dreams.
"Then he said, "I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven"-Matthew 18:34
"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the city that kills the prophets and stones God's messengers! How often I have wanted to gather your children together as a hen protects her chicks beneath her wings, but you wouldn't let me..." Matthew 23:37
"Whatever is good and perfect comes down to us from God our Father..." James 1:17
"God gives some people wealth, possessions and honor, so that they lack nothing their hearts desire..."- Ecclesiastes 6:2

from 14 onward, i thought that was how i could prove myself to the world. i won't ask people for anything, unless it is absolutely necessary. then as graduation approached & i found myself 18 years old and  pregnant. i began to try to plan how i would move finally move away from my parents. i wanted to show them that i could still be someone. i could do this. my boyfriend and i would get married (that was the reason we were intimate-one day we will be married anyway, right? "There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death."-Proverbs 14:12; "There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death."-Proverbs 16:25)  then we will live happily ever after. i will become a physical therapist, we will have this one kid that we can spoil, live in a nice house & have 3-4 cars! life is going to be great! then reality set in. i couldn't find a job. at least not a permanent one. meanwhile, my boyfriend took a job with a cross-country moving company, so that he could provide for us. when mom & i fought for the umpteenth time, i figured it was time to go. so i abruptly moved to Key West to live with my grandmother. at least there i could have more freedom & i already had a job awaiting me so i could provide for my child.
more to come as GOD unfolds this story.... 

How did you deal with being 18?

Did you seek to move right away, or did your parents tell you that you were a vital part of the family?
At this point did you have any idea that GOD had a plan for your life?

Monday, May 6, 2013

i adore books

Free Open Book Cliparti do. i really like books. i can get totally lost in a book forever. i wish i could own a bookstore! but then again i may never go home!! i wasn't planning for this to be my second post, but imagine my surprise when i found this in my inbox...

{An author’s web site is like a bookstore. But too often people pop in for one quick item and never look around. We want you to browse a little. So with a good cup of coffee in your hand, click HERE, then look around. Get familiar with the other items in our “store.” You might see a different book you’d love or the perfect gift for a friend.
Our incentive is a FREE eBook for you … a different one each month. So come back at least monthly, and tell all your friends.}

Neta Jackson is one of my favorite authors, she has written The Yada, Yada prayer group series. from the very first book, i was hooked. Neta is able to weave together the lives of several very different women & their families into a very compelling story.  Dave and Neta had decided to give away a free ebook each month and all you have to do is answer the trivia questions to obtain it. what could be better a free book & a scavenger hunt to boot! go check out their website and find a couple of books to fall in love with! 
P.S. they have written many stories that will introduce our children to the heroes of the faith.
P.P.S this couple writes together, works together, and live together. who says you can't get along with someone you see 24/7?
May GOD continue to bless them and open doors that no man can shut. In JESUS' Name

 thanks to clip art pal for the vintage books clip art.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

where do you craft?????

My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
                                                                             And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” Psalm 27:8.

one year, my family and i visited the Highlands County Fair. it was completly agricultural so when i stumbled upon a women whose booth contained , what we would now call a smash book, it demanded my full attention. this woman had taken a plain spiral and adhered all types of pictures to it. she said it was everything that she simply "just liked." she went on to tell me that she may never obtain any of these things but she was just glad that she did something with all of the pictures. as a article keeper ( i had long since given up my magazines & kept only the most important pages) i totally got what she was saying. i went home & proceeded to alter a book that i found from a library sale. a few pages into the altering, i began to read a few paragraphs & i was in trouble. suddenly the book seemed interesting! oh the life of a complusive reader. 

anyway, i have found myself in the position of starting over. again. so i have nowhere to go but up, right? this is where i shall collect & showcase beautiful craft spaces and organizing craft room ideas for those of you who don't follow me on pinterest. i hope you enjoy!

                                                           once i have my own space to create, i want My Father to feel free to visit & direct me at anytime! Do you find it easy to engage, not just have, devotions in your craft room? let me know.

go over to the Backyard Bungalow & check out her craft space. It is beautiful!                  

vintage craft room
so pretty & so easy-DIY Showoff
ribbon, mason jars

she calls this her project life organizer, check it out at

please, please go visit shabby story to find out more about this dreamy, creamy room

here is one of my very favorite sewing rooms. so pretty, so fem, so organized. go take a look, i'll bet that you   will find yourself wanting to stay!

that's all for today. see you again soon.
May GOD continue to bless you & make HIS face shine upon.

Hi, my name is...

Hi, my name is....
remember the name tag stickers that everyone hates for some strange reason?
i think it is because we all thought of a million painful descriptive words we could insert here, that didn't include our given name! my name is ayesha, and i have been walking through some pretty intense seasons lately. all the while i knew that i should be journaling & blogging so this could benefit someone else...yet i couldn't get there. not to mention the fact that i had no idea where to start. a couple of mornings ago, i woke up with the realization that i am a loser. no self-pity. no woe is me. i having been walking in a delusion these past 17 years! i have been thinking that there is something good about me. i have been trying to find the real ayesha. the one that is so__________. (smart, funny, caring, serving, etc.) but apart from GOD there is no good in me. i have proven time & time again that i simply can not do this life thing on my own. i make plans, i line things up, i try in my own strength, but to no avail. years ago i surrendered my life to GOD, and i know that we die to ourselves everyday, but i have to learn to give GOD the freedom to do as HE will with my life. sounds easy right? boy is it not! today, i have laid out all the titles that i must leave at the Master's Feet each day. (sometimes, every minute)
utterly hopeless
constantly depressed
a real screw- up
horrible parent
good for nothing
not lovable
good at nothing
never going to be anything
these labels can get pretty heavy & i grow so tired and weary of carrying them. 
the truth is we don't have to carry them at all.
 "Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”" Matthew 11: 28-30 NLT

which titles do you carry?
please remember that we don't have to carry these titles anymore. JESUS paid the price for them to be removed forever.